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Denial May 3, 2007

Posted by ash in about Moody rants.

I am in a state of true denial.

What can I say to describe the pain and sadness in my heart?

I don’t want to think about packing. Don’t want to think about how to send the heap of stuff I have here or how to throw away the stuff that I can’t bring back. Don’t want to think about the red tape and administrative procedures involved when closing accounts and cancelling utilities. Don’t want to think about the financial aspects. Don’t want to have to smile and say goodbye, pretending that life back home would be a good one. Don’t want to deal with reverse culture shock, something I know would hit me harder than others. Don’t want to share the same roof with my melodramatic mother. Don’t want to go back to quarrelling over money matters and jobs.

3 more months.



1. ~y~ - May 3, 2007

cheer up! it might be better than you imagine back home

2. ash - May 3, 2007

hope so!
let’s have coffee when I go back.

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